Wednesday, December 14, 2011

2011...is it over yet???

Hi strangers!  It's been a really long time since we last met here!  2011 was a tough year.  At the end of 2010 I had been working out at the gym and with a trainer for almost 5 months.  And though it was slow, I was making steady progress on my weight-loss goals.  Then on December 3rd I was laid off from my job.  The next several months of unemployment left me discouraged and on a downward spiral.  I quit my trainer and the gym and eventually gained back the weight I had lost.  My sister Ellen continued to deteriorate health-wise and on August 20th she lost her battle with amyloidosis.  I told my husband Tim that I felt like 2011 was the worst year I had ever had. 
However, I have to admit it wasn't all bad:
  • In April I was hired at UPS through a temp agency and in October I was added permanently.  I absolutely love working there!  The work is good and my co-workers are great! 
  • In November Tim and I celebrated our eleventh anniversary (on 11-11-11) with a great party at Mojo's with our good friends and family. 
  • The third major positive event of 2011 involves a Greenville trainer who had a contest.  Justin Bowers offered 8 weeks of free personal training to three  people in the upstate.  You had to post a video on YouTube convincing him to choose you, and guess who won??  YOURS TRULY!!  So now starting the first week of January, I will be working out...to the max!  For eight weeks Justin will be training me and posting the results (as will I).
I have been trying to get back into the gym and especially on the treadmill in preparation for the hard work in my near future.  Although at times in the past year I have felt like a failure (again), I know in my heart that I am not.  The only failure is not trying at all. 
As one of my New Year resolutions I am going to be more faithful on blogging and keeping you up to date on my never ending fight to be healthy.  I would welcome you comments and feedback anytime.  And if you are on your own search for health, I would love to hear of your successes...and failures.
Merry Christmas...and a VERY happy New Year!!

Friday, April 8, 2011

Routine, routine, routine...

The past two weeks I have discovered something about myself... I crave routine!  In the months that I have been unemployed I have missed having that routine in my life.  I am a creature of habit.  I watch the same TV shows, shop at the same stores, do laundry on the same weekday, eat at the same restaurants and on and on and on...  If you throw a monkey wrench into the mix it totally throws me off my game.  I need to learn how to make this work for me in my search for health.  I have read many times that you need to have variety in your diet, but I no think that FOR ME the opposite is true.  If I know what foods I am going to have (that I enjoy and that satisfy me) I find it much easier to stick to my diet.  Maybe if I were a good cook this would be different, but if you have ever had to eat a meal that I prepared than you would know I am NOT!  Hahahaha!  I just stick to what I know and it works for me.  It also applies to my exercise.  Exercising at the same time each day helps me be faithful to get it done.  Anytime I try to change that, I don't do as well.  So for now I will do what I now works for me and works with my "borderline OCD" personality.

I am back to working out twice a week with my trainer.  I did not realize just how hard it would be to jump back in after so much time out, but Melissa is a patient teacher and a true encourager.  I feel so lucky to have found her and I know I will succeed in part due to her help.  As I start my new job in a week and a half, I think my time with her will become even more important.  She will be my "true north" while things are somewhat chaotic in those first few weeks.  Since I am going to have to start getting up earlier (YUCK!!)  I am going to try to add eight minutes of  "wake up exercises" into my morning routine.  I picked up a book at GoodWill called 8 Minutes Every Morning that has a simple routine of two moves a day, 12 reps of each, to get your blood pumping in the morning and to kick start your metabolism.  I'll let you know how that goes.  It'll be tough for me because I am NOT a morning person.  I'll give it a good try anyway!

I am cleaning out my pantry this weekend to get rid of some of the junk that "somebody" snuck into my kitchen while I wasn't looking .(How did that happen??)  I am restocking with healthier snacks and fruit and veggies.  Starting this next week I will be tracking my food intake again.  Writing down what I eat keeps me mindful of what I am fueling my body with.  I am being the most mindful of calories and fat content.  I also need to keep an eye on the sodium.  And of course water, water water!!

I am excited about the new phase of my life I am about to start! 

It is never to late, in fiction or in life, to revise. - Nancy Thayer

Sunday, March 20, 2011

This Week's Plan

Tomorrow starts my first full week back on my fitness plan.  I have a two-point plan of attack:
1. Fitness: Monday I am back with my trainer and workout buddy.  I have really missed the encouragement and accountability that I get from Melissa and Denise.  Since I don't meet with them until the evening I plan to hit the gym mid-day and at least get a mile in on the treadmill.  Tuesday and Thursday I am planning to attend Group Power at my gym.  It's a group weight lifting class.  I have never tried the class before, but I am kinda looking forward to it.  Wednesday and Friday I will be on the treadmill as I try to increase my time to at least an hour or 3 miles, whichever comes first.  If there is nice weather on Saturday I will try to get on the Swamp Rabbit trail for a nice long walk. Sunday is my day of rest. 

2. Diet: Remembering my motto, "Baby Steps", I am planning on a few changes to my diet this week without a radical change.  Number one is no sugar.  This will mostly be snacks and desserts.  I successfully cut those out last time and I'm sure I can do it again.  I am going to the grocery store in the morning to stock up on fresh fruit.  A pear or sweet apple usually helps me curb the craving I get for sugar.  The second change will be to add a serving of vegetables to each meal.  Third and last for this week is to eat a better breakfast each morning.  I need to switch back to 2% milk with my cereal and watch the sugar content of my cereal.

Well, that's my plan for now.  One week at a time, one day at a time, one step at a time.  Wish me luck!!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Back in the saddle????

After 3 long months of self-pity and a give-up attitude, I am back in the saddle...somewhat.  You might remember that December 3rd I lost my job.  I have spent the last three months in a fog.  For a reason I have yet to understand I really let my circumstances get the best of me.  For 3 months previous I had been exercising regularly and losing weight, but I punished myself after my job loss and stopped taking care of myself at all. 

Over the last week or so, something has finally snapped inside me.  Today I was back at the gym and on the treadmill.  I feel like I am getting my "mojo" back and my desire to be active and fit.  So I am taking my own advice from my previous blogs and starting over right this minute.  No beating myself up for what I didn't do that I should have or for the bad things I have been feeding my body.  I am starting fresh today...right now.  It was tough to get back on the treadmill today, but I can tell I am not all the way back to last August, thank goodness, but there is a lot of time to make up for. 

I missed my goal of running a 5K this month, so I am scheduling a new one for the fall.  I'm not sure of the exact date yet, but I'll get that set soon.  I was on the treadmill today, just walking, for about 30 minutes at a 2.7 speed rate.  I plan to build up as quickly as possible to one hour at 3-3.5 speed.  I hope to reach that goal in 3 weeks.  Then I will start running again.  I am also going to be working out with my trainer again.  She has been patient while I worked this all out and has continued to encourage me to not give up completely.  Thanks for that Melissa!

I will try to be better about posting my progress.  I hope some of you who have also been through a tough time can find the "mojo" in you to be good to yourself.  You're worth it!

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Good advice from another blogger

One of my favorite bloggers is the Plus+Runner.  Her goal is to prove that even us big girls can be athletes.  I thought her most recent blog was worth sharing.  Hope you get as much from it a I did; (my favorite is #5)


10 tips for finding- and sticking with - your inner athlete


At the beginning of each year, we're all laced with some super-potent exercise cocktail.  Evolution (or perhaps our innate nature which lets hope spring eternal every winter) makes us believe this year will be better.  This plan will work.  These things will stick.
Sometimes they do - but sometimes, little things get in our way.  We're all grownups with schedules and obligations and habits that we drag around.  So how do you hurdle them to find your inner athlete?
I've been thinking about this as I struggle to find a rhythm that works for me again for "getting moving".  A few weeks back I received the rather tough news that my lingering foot issue is apparently here to stay, and having been summarily benched from running - and even (GASP) walking any real distance, I'm finding myself annoyed and unmotivated.
So I built myself a pep list.  It's just what it sounds like - it's a little pep talk - on paper - to remind myself that there aren't any rules except DON'T GET HURT. Here, then, my ten tips for finding my inner athlete - being put to good use, as we speak...

1.  Think outside the path.  The running path is my "box" - it's the place I go to work out, run, walk, interval, cross train, bike etc. I do it because it's easy and close and safe.  But now, it's off limits to me. So I've got to think wider and farther.  For me, that means finding an alternate, totally different activity to keep me motivated - this week, that's going to mean cross country skiing!

2. Think of it like seasonal fruit. Every cookbook you see is organized by season (okay, well, the ones I've been reading lately.) If you're in a climate that HAS four seasons, try something season-ish. In Chicago, that means I'm tempted to check out the Ice Rink at Wrigley, or spending 30 minutes building a snowman, (try it, it's a workout!) or shoveling for an hour (okay, to be fair, not me).  But there are lots of opportunities to take advantage of the weather in a way that helps get the blood moving.  Do what's easy in those situations.

3. It's not about the clothes. I pay a LOT of attention to what I wear, but that's because I live in a tundra and when I was a distance runner, it mattered what was on my body for a three hour run in 20 degree weather.  But most days, no one - other than you - gives a flip about what's on your bod. Cover up, or don't, but it's only an hour, and really, if you just dress in layers, you'll be fine.

4. Eat the elephant. This is Coach Jenny Hadfield's fave phrase (or at least one I hear her reference all the time) and I love it.  If you have 100 pounds to drop, you're not going to see a result right away. Remember that you have to do it one step at a time. You can't run a 5k if you can't walk to the end of the block - at least, NOT TODAY.  But you will be able to do it soon.  Look to the horizon.  For me, that means looking towards June as a "go" date, and taking small, meaningful activity bites in the meantime.

5. Stop bitching. Yikes, that sounds mean.  But seriously, this is mostly a tip for little old me. I can complain all day long about how much I'm annoyed to be hurt, but let's face it folks, things happen.  I refuse to complain any more about this foot - instead, I WILL find the positive in what it forces me to try as an alternative.

6. Pack a flare. When you need a group workout, ask your friends to join you.  Need someone to help you get out of a funk? ASK.  You don't have to ask your husband or your best friend - you can go meet new people, and ask them too.  Are you going to a Weight Watchers or other meeting? Raise your hand and ask if the group (who clearly knows how to get to your location one day a week) can meet before, or after, or another day of the week and walk for 2 miles. It might only be 30 minutes, but that's a HUGE accomplishment if you were doing nothing before.  You can do the same thing with work colleagues or train buddies, or that other mom who drops off her kid at the same time you do every day.

7. Have a fallback position. In one of my favorite series, Band of Brothers, I learned about the importance of a fallback position.  It's the place you go when sh*t goes awry, when you can't move forward - but you don't want to get run out of town.  In athlete land, that's figuring out what is the absolute BARE minimum you will accept from yourself on a weekly basis.  Is that two workouts? Is it 30 minutes a day?  For me, right now, that fallback position is ZERO minutes, and that's got to change.

8. Do something totally frightening. Most Januaries, I sign up for a terrifying race in the August/September time frame.  It lets me plan out the year, and reduces the likelihood that I'll coast all the way till May with no aerobic or core training.  This year, I'm torn because life is in a bit of limbo, but I'll likely be signing up for another Olympic distance triathlon in that range.  Is it because I like killing myself? No. Will I necessarily finish? Nope.  But I WILL train like a devil and get back in the pool, and for me, that's what matters today.  That race scares the ever-living crap out of me, and it consistently does the trick of getting me moving.  Maybe, for you, that's signing up to take Tennis lessons, or learning how to play Ultimate Frisbee.  Maybe it's racquetball or basketball or a volleyball team.  What frightens you is personal - think about it, and use it to make you move.

9. Pay it forward. Find a way to make your movement meaningful, and you'll likely stick with it longer.  Maybe it means bringing a friend on walks with you. Maybe it's running or walking for a cause.  But if you reach out and help others, you'll be more likely to finish whatever you've completed, because it's not about you - it's about someone else.  And if you're like me, you're frequently far more likely to not want to let someone ELSE down than you are to pay attention to your own little needs :)

10.  Accept that you will be humbled. We are not all born athletes.  We have to learn how to do things.  We will fail.  We will fall off bikes, we will sprain ankles, and we will look really, really stupid at times.  But all of those things will make us better at our sport of choice, and with muscle memory and learning, we'll get better.  Really, we will.  It won't always feel like this.  The same goes for your aerobic capacity.  We're like gas tanks - if you've been draining the lungs with no activity for awhile, it's going to take a bit of work - every day work - to get them functioning right on demand.  So don't get all mad when you're huffing and puffing (or sweating or red-faced).  It's a badge of honor, and it just says 'hey, I'm new here.'   It's a good thing.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Goals for 2011

I had a GREAT meeting with my personal trainer this past Monday.  Because of another nasty head cold I was not able to do any exercise, but we spent the time setting very specific goals for 2011.  I thought I'd share them with you.  It helps me keep on track knowing that so many people know what I am trying to accomplish.
So here goes:
  1. We set some specific weight loss goals.  Since I gained 1.6 pounds in December (due to stress from job loss and illness), Melissa felt that to get back on track I should have specific goals.  And I agree.  I am at 236.6 pounds.  The goal is 230 by Jan. 31st, 222 by Feb. 28th, 215 by Mar. 30th, 207 by Apr. 30th and 200 by May 31st.  It comes down to about 2 pounds per week.  That's more than I have been losing so I really have to ramp it up.
  2. In order to reach the weight goals I am going to stick to a 1500-1600 calorie diet.  I will go back to tracking my food and calories in a food journal.  My calories should be approximately 900 from carbs (healthy carbs), 250 from protein and 450 from healthy fats.
  3. I will walk 3 miles at least 6 days a week.  My goal is for a 15 minute mile pace (that's about 4.0 on the treadmill).
  4. I will keep doing at least 3 days a week of strength training, about 45 minutes each time. I am adding a kettle bell routine to my mix.  Everything I have read says you burn more calories in the same amount of time by using a kettle bell rather than regular weights.
  5. I will track more closely the calories I am burning during my exercise.  I am looking at several tech toys to help me with that, like a BodyBugg (as seen on Biggest Loser).  I have also found several websites that will help me calculate the burn.  I just need to make sure I have the correct deficit of calories so that I can lose the weight I need to lose to meet my goals.
  6. I have gotten slack on how much water I drink each day, so I am aiming for 8 glasses a day.
All of that will get me to June and then we'll regroup and set new goals to get to the final weight goal.  I am not sure yet exactly what my final weight goal will be.  I need to see how my body changes in the next few months and see where I think I will be comfortable.  I know the scales you find online can tell you what range they think you should be in, but I am not convinced that is always best for everyone.  We are all built differently and need to take those personal differences into account.  If I reach a weight where I am happy, healthy and I feel good, then that's where I will level off.

I will keep you posted on my progress.  I appreciate all of the wonderful and encouraging notes I have received from so many of you.
Have a happy and healthy 2011!!

Sunday, January 2, 2011

First full week of 2011!

Tomorrow starts the first full "normal" week I have had sine the beginning of December.  Between losing my job, being sick, getting through the holidays and Tim's week off things have been CRAZY!  I am actually looking forward to what the week holds for me.  I plan to implement my resolutions by getting back into the gym and back on a regular exercise routine. 

Tim and I spent most of this past week putting down and new kitchen floor and a few other small household projects.  The kitchen floor is done and the baseboards are in place.  My job this week is to putty the screw holes and then to paint them.  Luckily they were primed before they were put in place.  It all looks great and I am excited about my kitchen again!  Maybe it will encourage me to spend more time cooking, since one of my resolutions is for us to eat at home more often.  Since I do not consider myself much of a cook, this is always a challenge!

My trainer is back in town after her vacation, so I will be working out with her again this week.  I did not realize how much I relied on her, so I know now that I need to become a little more self reliant.  As I think about getting my personal trainers certificate, it is good for me to realize how much difference a trainer can make in a client's life.  I hope I can have that kind of relationship with my own clients some day!  In the meantime, I still have a lot to learn and a lot of work ahead to meet my goals this year.

Wednesday night I am meeting with a friend here in Greenville to help her get started on her journey to be healthy and lose weight.  She is a busy mother of three, so her challenges are different than mine.  It will be tough for her to find the time for exercise, so I am really stressing to her to take baby steps and to start slowly.  The last thing you want to do is burn yourself out too quickly or get discouraged right off the bat.  When you have bad days and you mess up, you need to be forgiving to yourself and just start over. Not the next day, but RIGHT NOW.  Anytime is a good time to start eating better and start moving.  If you messed up this morning and had a doughnut, then right this minute is the right time to "start over"!

I hope all of you will find peace and happiness in this new year/  And don't forget to eat your veggies!!